EMPTY :: 7/22/07, 11:10 PM
if u ever noe.. if u ever notice.. tt little me after so long.. some where..my heart still beats for u.. i have nv been tt serious before.and i have no idea why it is u.. but i m happy for u..i m sure u will get all the love u deserve..
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 6/24/07, 9:44 PM
i m rather affected by something i saw now.dunno wad to say..juz cant help feelin upset.. perhaps it juz myself to blame.i myself made my life so miserable.i need a new motivation in life.i need time.juz simple time and b alone.i will not do nor say or show anything,anymore again.i really should not.i m selfish myself.juz refusing to face e reality.i juz keep holding on to a false hope.and made everyone disappointed..from now on.. no more u in my life..i will move on.. not becoz u no longer held a place.. juz tt i m keepin u ...deeply in my heart.. n always..
i m happy with e memories u left me.
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 6/12/07, 7:15 AM
recently realli not in good mood.things.. everything seem to b in a unfavour situation.i dunno.but i juz cant help feelin upset.i have many things to say,many things tt i wanna let out.but it seems tt there is no longer anyone tt i realli could trust and talk to... haish..i dunno.. perhaps i m really not a good enuff friend or wadsoever.. even my brothers,my so called "kiat bai" seems so far away from me le... lols..
e someone tt is so special too.. in e past,even if things turn out e other way,i could still see myself as someone special.but now,wad i could feel,is juz a normal friend relationship.. sad to say,i still cant give up on u..dunno why,perhaps and perhaps,i m juz so sturbon in relationships.. i need someone,someone to talk to..desperately..
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 6/6/07, 11:53 PM
in sch food court now.. m so irritated by so incident tt happens in sch juz now. pls girls.. this in a sch,not some pub or clubs tt u wear those mini demi short skirts to flash around. my groups of peeps were slacking around in food court six when they spotted girls accidently flashin their undies.they were gentlemen enuff to go over and tell the girl friends about wad they saw. of course some discussion and commusion was goin on.. kind enuff but a twist of misunderstanding.. in e end,my friend was being confronted by angry faces,n i was called by my hp to help ... zzz ..
was really irritated by e way one of e guy talk to me,was dammm irritated.. i did controlled my temper if not... coz i somehow remembered how someone dislike so much about guys fighting.. hmmmm,i still wanna keep her words in mind..
realli dammn bored in sch now,my whole day in sch is like for ... nothing ? lessons cancelled,here and there... damm fuk up.. i m home like for ages le la.. someone,... pls date me out.. or any activities rather than night life... pls.. i m so bored ... i m already growing white hairs le.. LOLs..
my birthday comming,i have made up my mind tt i m gonna celebrate at mv2 on e 14th . but i m still thinking who to call.. its like i need to make a wise decision la.. if not,i m gonna get myself so drunk tt night.which i dun wan to.. hmmm .. so.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself.i m so gonna enjoy my day this year and forget all e unhappy events.. tata..~~~
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 6/5/07, 10:31 PM
in sch now and lesson sucks.i m almost bored to death and e aircon is blowing like no body's business.arghh... i needa defroze.anyway,i m glad e 2 weeks holidays are comming,which means i can enjoy my ample sleep of mine.wahahah..
well,had been very tired recently,was working for PC show at suntec for e past 4 days.crowd was ... SCARY.. there was hardly place to move about when e crowd was let in. it juz reminded me of the seventh month,those hungry ghost .. wahaha..LOLs..hmmm result was not bad,i sold total of 91 pieces.. quite satisfied with my result tough.quite fun la,made a lots of new friends and even show girls. one got number from me coz my customer la,and to my susprise,she is from thailand.lols.. she is a " tai guo hua qiao " . lols,chat a bit and yea...busy.. lols .. hmmm..
well,my birthday is coming,thanks peeps for those who remember my birthday and sent me their early greetings,i sincerely appreciate all of them.Thanks.
dunno whether m i too sensitive or.. receive her msg recently,but e warmt seem to have disappeared.it no longer carries e special meaning anymore,it seems cold and... i dunno how to explain,perhaps,i realli have become juz a normal friend.. or mayb all along i m jus a normal friend,it juz tt i dun wish to believe or accept the fact,i chose to lie to myself tt someday,somehow a miracle will juz happen,but.. e fact is...
i still miss u.. badly..
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 5/17/07, 10:57 PM
well.hasnt been blogging recently.coz i m really lazy n totally not in e mood.many things happen and has mess up my life totally.today would b a long entry.. i guess.to account for many things.lols..
i have somehow quit drinking.. hasnt been drinking for sometime.but was in pub all this while.. dun wanna stay at home,dun wana think.this few nights was always jeff,steve,flora or andy/jax accompanying me. i feel heavy.something inside is really draging me and weighing me down.n i hate this feelings.A BIG sorry to all friends who get it from me recently. my temper is realli ....WHOOOOO... i didnt mean it,serisouly. i know all of u guys care,but perhaps i juz needed time and be alone.
anyone have job?esp night time job or flexible time.i needa more money .. lols.. i m no longer a pamper boy.n i have to grow up now.. i m gonna take care of myself of everything from now on... i am not gonna rely anything on my parents again.anything regarding me.i will PAY it by myself.so please. ( mum & dad ) ,if i can be sensible enuff to know wads best for me,i sincerely think u guys should noe what to do.thanks .
- for my brothers...
let have some confined trust with one another.n i mean real trusting.if we realli wish to prolong this friendship and make it strong . i guess u guys know what to do,i m realli quite dissapointed with stuff that are happening recently. what are we guys doin?who is our piority and whose not.make ure stand..` we cant have e best of both world .
lastly,to this very special person.n i will make it e last entry.i m heartbroken.to b frank..
v heartbroken.from ur msges,i could tell.. u nv trust me too much at all.
mayb i m juz a passerby,mayb someone more than a passerby,i dunno.till now.. u have nv gave me a definte ans before.. i was waiting for u all this while.. but to u,u thought tt i might b flirting around with u ?? haha,u crack my heart.. u realli do,i have nv thought u will think this way,n y i even bothered to explain.. u r important.from e day i started flirting with u,i have made it clear.i like u deep coz i noe myself, i seldom give in so much to someone.n thinking so madly about someone.. u tried ure best at tt period n i noe it. Forcing ureself to b with me ,deceiving ureself tt u will fall deep in me one day juz like how i do...silly girl u..i wanted u to be genuniely happy...
till then,i juz wanted to b nice to u,n nothing else,hoping one day,somehow,i might have a real chance to b back with u.. but it seem... further than i thought.
i guess theres isnt much to say anymore... this should b enuff.. brace up yourself k,b happy,many other things can cheer u up,its not juz him.. take care..
ai ren shi tong ku de,bei ai shi xing fu de... always remember this.know ure path and walk it.even if it is painful,u will still smile becoz it all worth it.
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 5/10/07, 12:26 AM
i m realli not in e mood for anyting now.so many things happened recently. a fake smile is all i could make out to brighten tings up.i hate to say.but i learnt e truth.thanks for making me stronger.i hate u.i dun need u and FUCK off from my life from now on.i m never gonna look back again.thanks for everything.ure words.ure actions,ure gesture,ure everything.take all back.
SIMPLY ALL RUBBISH....
thanks !
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 4/29/07, 8:58 AM
browing thru my phone,i saw all e sms again.my heart aches.
all e sweet msgs,all e care n concern..tt closeness..
-gone-
i still cant...
u r still in my heart.. .. all this while..
i miss u..
haish.. aint i lousy,i promise myself tt i will forget u,haha.but till now,i m still dewelling ..i really hate myself for doin tt.perhaps,i juz need time.well,hasnt been bloggin recently,rather busy with school stuff.. events and competition. Had a hard time last night,my younger brother got ditched.realli didnt know how to console him,its not e first time this ger breaks his heart.hai.juz hope he will get over her soon.had been drinking this few nights.n i m realli afraid of alcohol now.juz e smell can make me
puke.. arghh....
off today,was down with fever.now my whole body is aching like shit.n i realli dun like it.. n e stupid anti-biotic is making me sweating profusely.will b goin to spyder later with my younger bro and his friends.. to drink again.. haish.. i realli mush put a major FULLSTOP to everything soon.. i need to get on with my life... like this ----> =)
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 4/19/07, 9:55 AM
i dearly misses her alot...
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
EMPTY :: 4/16/07, 10:04 AM
workin this past 2 days was bored.. nv had such time before.serve only less than 15 customers in 2 days.. was almost bored to tears..lucky my painful days ended sooner than i knew.. started sch today.was fun.made many new friends.. those yr 1 freishies.. lols.. was lookin forward to tml.. gonna learn new stuff.. i m gonna work realli hard for my results now.. increase my GPA.at least it will b easy if i wanna futher my studies in future.. not gonna think of any relationship stuff now.. i juz wanna set all my heart in my studies n getting my license.. i will do it .. i will not think of u ..
The wind is blowing & the leaves are falling. Empty Without You
