`cherish n treasure

2007-07-22T23:10:00.000-07:00

if u ever noe.. if u ever notice.. tt little me after so long.. some where..my heart still beats for u.. i have nv been tt serious before.and i have no idea why it is u.. but i m happy for u..i m sure u will get all the love u deserve..

2007-06-24T21:44:00.000-07:00

i m rather affected by something i saw now.dunno wad to say..juz cant help feelin upset.. perhaps it juz myself to blame.i myself made my life so miserable.i need a new motivation in life.i need time.juz simple time and b alone.i will not do nor say or show anything,anymore again.i really should not.i m selfish myself.juz refusing to face e reality.i juz keep holding on to a false hope.and made everyone disappointed..from now on.. no more u in my life..i will move on.. not becoz u no longer held a place.. juz tt i m keepin u ...deeply in my heart.. n always..

i m happy with e memories u left me.

2007-06-12T07:15:00.000-07:00

recently realli not in good mood.things.. everything seem to b in a unfavour situation.i dunno.but i juz cant help feelin upset.i have many things to say,many things tt i wanna let out.but it seems tt there is no longer anyone tt i realli could trust and talk to... haish..i dunno.. perhaps i m really not a good enuff friend or wadsoever.. even my brothers,my so called "kiat bai" seems so far away from me le... lols..

e someone tt is so special too.. in e past,even if things turn out e other way,i could still see myself as someone special.but now,wad i could feel,is juz a normal friend relationship.. sad to say,i still cant give up on u..dunno why,perhaps and perhaps,i m juz so sturbon in relationships.. i need someone,someone to talk to..desperately..

2007-06-06T23:53:00.000-07:00

in sch food court now.. m so irritated by so incident tt happens in sch juz now. pls girls.. this in a sch,not some pub or clubs tt u wear those mini demi short skirts to flash around. my groups of peeps were slacking around in food court six when they spotted girls accidently flashin their undies.they were gentlemen enuff to go over and tell the girl friends about wad they saw. of course some discussion and commusion was goin on.. kind enuff but a twist of misunderstanding.. in e end,my friend was being confronted by angry faces,n i was called by my hp to help ... zzz ..

was really irritated by e way one of e guy talk to me,was dammm irritated.. i did controlled my temper if not... coz i somehow remembered how someone dislike so much about guys fighting.. hmmmm,i still wanna keep her words in mind..

realli dammn bored in sch now,my whole day in sch is like for ... nothing ? lessons cancelled,here and there... damm fuk up.. i m home like for ages le la.. someone,... pls date me out.. or any activities rather than night life... pls.. i m so bored ... i m already growing white hairs le.. LOLs..
my birthday comming,i have made up my mind tt i m gonna celebrate at mv2 on e 14th . but i m still thinking who to call.. its like i need to make a wise decision la.. if not,i m gonna get myself so drunk tt night.which i dun wan to.. hmmm .. so.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself.i m so gonna enjoy my day this year and forget all e unhappy events.. tata..~~~

2007-06-05T22:31:00.001-07:00

in sch now and lesson sucks.i m almost bored to death and e aircon is blowing like no body's business.arghh... i needa defroze.anyway,i m glad e 2 weeks holidays are comming,which means i can enjoy my ample sleep of mine.wahahah..

well,had been very tired recently,was working for PC show at suntec for e past 4 days.crowd was ... SCARY.. there was hardly place to move about when e crowd was let in. it juz reminded me of the seventh month,those hungry ghost .. wahaha..LOLs..hmmm result was not bad,i sold total of 91 pieces.. quite satisfied with my result tough.quite fun la,made a lots of new friends and even show girls. one got number from me coz my customer la,and to my susprise,she is from thailand.lols.. she is a " tai guo hua qiao " . lols,chat a bit and yea...busy.. lols .. hmmm..

well,my birthday is coming,thanks peeps for those who remember my birthday and sent me their early greetings,i sincerely appreciate all of them.Thanks.

dunno whether m i too sensitive or.. receive her msg recently,but e warmt seem to have disappeared.it no longer carries e special meaning anymore,it seems cold and... i dunno how to explain,perhaps,i realli have become juz a normal friend.. or mayb all along i m jus a normal friend,it juz tt i dun wish to believe or accept the fact,i chose to lie to myself tt someday,somehow a miracle will juz happen,but.. e fact is...

i still miss u.. badly..

2007-05-17T22:57:00.000-07:00

well.hasnt been blogging recently.coz i m really lazy n totally not in e mood.many things happen and has mess up my life totally.today would b a long entry.. i guess.to account for many things.lols..

i have somehow quit drinking.. hasnt been drinking for sometime.but was in pub all this while.. dun wanna stay at home,dun wana think.this few nights was always jeff,steve,flora or andy/jax accompanying me. i feel heavy.something inside is really draging me and weighing me down.n i hate this feelings.A BIG sorry to all friends who get it from me recently. my temper is realli ....WHOOOOO... i didnt mean it,serisouly. i know all of u guys care,but perhaps i juz needed time and be alone.

anyone have job?esp night time job or flexible time.i needa more money .. lols.. i m no longer a pamper boy.n i have to grow up now.. i m gonna take care of myself of everything from now on... i am not gonna rely anything on my parents again.anything regarding me.i will PAY it by myself.so please. ( mum & dad ) ,if i can be sensible enuff to know wads best for me,i sincerely think u guys should noe what to do.thanks .

- for my brothers...
let have some confined trust with one another.n i mean real trusting.if we realli wish to prolong this friendship and make it strong . i guess u guys know what to do,i m realli quite dissapointed with stuff that are happening recently. what are we guys doin?who is our piority and whose not.make ure stand..` we cant have e best of both world .

lastly,to this very special person.n i will make it e last entry.i m heartbroken.to b frank..
v heartbroken.from ur msges,i could tell.. u nv trust me too much at all.

mayb i m juz a passerby,mayb someone more than a passerby,i dunno.till now.. u have nv gave me a definte ans before.. i was waiting for u all this while.. but to u,u thought tt i might b flirting around with u ?? haha,u crack my heart.. u realli do,i have nv thought u will think this way,n y i even bothered to explain.. u r important.from e day i started flirting with u,i have made it clear.i like u deep coz i noe myself, i seldom give in so much to someone.n thinking so madly about someone.. u tried ure best at tt period n i noe it. Forcing ureself to b with me ,deceiving ureself tt u will fall deep in me one day juz like how i do...silly girl u..i wanted u to be genuniely happy...
till then,i juz wanted to b nice to u,n nothing else,hoping one day,somehow,i might have a real chance to b back with u.. but it seem... further than i thought.
i guess theres isnt much to say anymore... this should b enuff.. brace up yourself k,b happy,many other things can cheer u up,its not juz him.. take care..

ai ren shi tong ku de,bei ai shi xing fu de... always remember this.know ure path and walk it.even if it is painful,u will still smile becoz it all worth it.

2007-05-10T00:26:00.000-07:00

i m realli not in e mood for anyting now.so many things happened recently. a fake smile is all i could make out to brighten tings up.i hate to say.but i learnt e truth.thanks for making me stronger.i hate u.i dun need u and FUCK off from my life from now on.i m never gonna look back again.thanks for everything.ure words.ure actions,ure gesture,ure everything.take all back.

SIMPLY ALL RUBBISH....

thanks !

2007-04-29T08:58:00.000-07:00

browing thru my phone,i saw all e sms again.my heart aches.
all e sweet msgs,all e care n concern..tt closeness..
-gone-

i still cant...
u r still in my heart.. .. all this while..

i miss u..

haish.. aint i lousy,i promise myself tt i will forget u,haha.but till now,i m still dewelling ..i really hate myself for doin tt.perhaps,i juz need time.well,hasnt been bloggin recently,rather busy with school stuff.. events and competition. Had a hard time last night,my younger brother got ditched.realli didnt know how to console him,its not e first time this ger breaks his heart.hai.juz hope he will get over her soon.had been drinking this few nights.n i m realli afraid of alcohol now.juz e smell can make me
puke.. arghh....

off today,was down with fever.now my whole body is aching like shit.n i realli dun like it.. n e stupid anti-biotic is making me sweating profusely.will b goin to spyder later with my younger bro and his friends.. to drink again.. haish.. i realli mush put a major FULLSTOP to everything soon.. i need to get on with my life... like this ----> =)

2007-04-19T09:55:00.001-07:00

i dearly misses her alot...

2007-04-16T10:04:00.000-07:00

workin this past 2 days was bored.. nv had such time before.serve only less than 15 customers in 2 days.. was almost bored to tears..lucky my painful days ended sooner than i knew.. started sch today.was fun.made many new friends.. those yr 1 freishies.. lols.. was lookin forward to tml.. gonna learn new stuff.. i m gonna work realli hard for my results now.. increase my GPA.at least it will b easy if i wanna futher my studies in future.. not gonna think of any relationship stuff now.. i juz wanna set all my heart in my studies n getting my license.. i will do it .. i will not think of u ..

2007-04-13T08:33:00.000-07:00

so tired nowadays.had been leading a healthy lifestyle tough.. basketball almost everyday,gym.. and stuff..lols.. 3 more days to sch reopen..so looking forward to it.. was down at keong saik rd again last night.. initial planing was goin to babyface de.. but think someone couldnt make it.. so yea..went down with yi n my younger bro to look for alan and ah shun.they were at butterfly.. boring place la.. small n stuffy.. dun realli like e place.. went to crazy hours after tt coz alan had some friends over there.. the waitress there was SUPER LOUD SPOKEN lo.. cannot tahan ar.. they were even louder than e peson singing with mike lo.. irritating.. so i left and went to mv with my younger bro.. saw michael,ah wee n lai there.. stupid michael.. upon reaching start to pia jiu with me le.. drank super a lot la.. somemore with e amount of beer i drank eariler.. was gonneee e night..not drunk ba.. but high.. n is damm high la.. spin like siao.. concus straight upon reaching home.. lols.. i m quiting drinking.. i dun find a need to drink anymore.. coz it no longer hurts.. last night.. i wasnt even a bit disturb.. not even a slightest bit.. n i felt relieved n happy..for her.. all e best ba..

current mood ---------> =)

2007-04-12T03:43:00.000-07:00

went to sentosa with my peeps ytd.. was fun.been long since i last went there..was there with angbao,cuifen,jeff,david,jin hoe and kaixin.. with tt stupid steve putting A BIG aeroplane.. was rather piss of by tt -_-"....hmmmm..
went suntanning and fishing.. lols.. caught a few small fishes,corals,clams.. and ... a small sotong..?? lols.. was realli tiny lo,i didnt knew sotong can b tt small,almost e size of a tadpole.. and totally back.. rather amuse by it movement too..lols.. left around 4 plus then headed down to marnia south for steamboat.. went to cathay and watch e reaping.. hmm dun realli like e show.not easy to understand and e most scarying part was nothing but e sound effects-_-"""..
nt realli worth watchin though.. well receive darling msg this past days,hope tt her grandma will b alright.. take good care yea..

bye .

2007-04-08T18:59:00.000-07:00

has been long since i last posted.was rather buzy for the past few days.was working for 3 full days at EMS centre for the harvey norman warehouse sale roadshow.. was damm hot there la.. it was a open tent juz beside e warehouse.. crowd was good.. sold around 100++ pieces of cameras over e 3 days.. but commision was realli pathetic.. $2 per com.. sucky. lucky it all ended le..
was at mv last night.. stupid roger,always treating us drink .. stupid him..but yea la.. thanks for treating me well as a bro.. i will not forget u.. =) had fun last night.. coz i get to see her..finally i m seeing her smile.. this time a real smile.. not a faking smile anymore.. i m happy for her.
pls dun be upset after reading it.. its not worth it. sorry.

`if man always break a promise to a woman.. the man right here wount fail e woman again..
`coz he meant wad he say.. i will b there for u ..

2007-04-03T07:43:00.000-07:00

juz got back home.so tired.hmmm.. one thing i must admit.. i m getting fat.. lols..i see tyres of fats oozing out from my tummy lo.. i hate it. gona realli spent lotas effort in getting rid of it.. its a must..lols..nothing much happen this days.much lively.. spending time with friends,gymming,basketball-ing and dota-ing.. lols.. since long i had such life style back.seems more simpler,more carefree.. and ...

haven been thinking of things for days..i didnt want to,and guess.. i didnt have to anymore.coz it no longer concern me.i no longer have any say.. hope shes fine..things at home are getting better.althought its still quiet but at least .. no more quarrels.. i have my peace... at e least,to concentrate on wad i wana do..

needa appologise to this veri special person.i have known her for 3 yrs.and for this 3 yrs,she has always been around me supporting me when i m down.esp in turn of relationship or any heart issues.shes is always there.n i m glad.. i m realli sorry,perhaps humans are juz like this,when things are always in pocession,they will never notice n juz take it for granted.i didnt noe tt u are still holding tt feelins despite my ignorance.i m sorry.i iwll do my best k .. stop dewelling coz it juz made me feel upset too..i need time...

anyway,i came across this joke which i find it realli interesting.. let share it.. =)

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Subject: Primary 3 questions?

A Primary School teacher was having trouble with one of her students.The teacher asked, "Harry, what is your problem?"Harry answered, "I'm too smart for the Primary 1. My sister is in Primary 3 and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in Primary 3 too!"The teacher took Harry to the principal's office.While Harry waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told the teacher he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the Primary 1, and behave.The teacher agreed. Harry was brought in. The conditions were explained, and Harry agreed to take the test.Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"Harry: "9"Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"Harry: "36"And so it went with every question the principal thought a Primary 1 student should know.The principal looks at the teacher and tells her,"I think Harry can go to Primary 3."The teacher says to the principal,"May I ask him some tougher questions?"The principal and Harry both agree.Teacher: "What does a cow have four of that I have only two?"Harry: "Legs."Teacher: "What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?"(The principal wondered, why does she ask such a question!)Harry: "Pockets."Teacher: "What does a dog do that a man steps into?"Harry: "Pants."Teacher: "What starts with a C and ends with a T, and it is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?"(The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer...)Harry: "Coconut."Teacher: "What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft and sticky?"Harry: "Bubblegum."Teacher: "What does a man do standing up, a woman do sitting down and dog do on three legs?"(The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer...)Harry: "Shake hands."Teacher: "Now I will ask some 'Who am I' sort of questions, okay?"Teacher: "You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do." Who am I?Harry: "A Tent."Teacher: "A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored. The best man always has me first." What am I?(Principal was looking restless and a bit tense)Harry: "A Wedding Ring."Teacher: "I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, I feel good." What am I?Harry: "A Nose."Teacher: "I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver." What am I?Harry: "An Arrow."Teacher: "What word starts with an 'F' and ends in 'K' that means a lot of excitement?"Harry: "Firetruck."The principal breathed a sigh of relief and told the teacher, "Put this ass in Primary 6! I got the last 10 questions all wrong myself."

2007-04-01T08:15:00.000-07:00

back from work.. sale result over this weekend realli sucks.. sold only 10..pathetic.. sigh !
2 more wks.count down to sch reopen.cant wait for it to start.i miss e days in sch.having fun with my fellow classmate.. busying preparing for exams.. juz loves those days.but shitty la,because of my stupid gems,i failed to comply the compulsory attendance,most of my lesson subjects have to b forwarded..so for this stupid sem,i only have 3 pathetic subjects.Jus wait to see my time table,so f***ing empty..like only 2 to 3 hrs per day only.. waste my sch fees.. shit !

anyway,from tml onwards,i will b at california fittness to gym out for 2 wks.David is working there n he was able to give me 2 wks of free acess.Free acess to all facilities n event session..yay~ at e least,this will keep me busy from thinking of unnecessary stuff. i only have myself to rely on now.. i have to b strong,n i know ..i will
i will forget u ..

2007-03-31T10:56:00.000-07:00

juz back from mv2.. dear diary.i lost.. everything.. things didnt get better as days goes by,in fact it seems to get worst.i learnt many truth today.n i start to see e whole picture.. finally.......... i m gald.. i m not gona brood over stuff anymore.when things juz dun meant to b,it never will.perhaps it didnt even started before..or in fact,i was never in e picture at all. it juz my part of wishful thinking.. i m still sadden by wad happening at home,or i should say,i nv felt tt terrible before.i wanna b alone.. juz alone..

take care n b happy.......................................................................

2007-03-30T02:34:00.000-07:00

i m alone at home now............simply juz alone.i yearn to see my parents so so much..but yet....
this house to me no longer remain warm and hearty.so cold.. so unfamilar.. why things turns out this way.. realli hate it.. cant i do anything to bring things back in place.i quarreled with my dad last night.e first time i realli raised my voice at my dad.i felt so sorry.but i juz hate the things he told me.i know both of u are suffering.. i noe i cant do much to ease e pain,but i realli wish u 2 to b happy.dun tell me to follow who or so if this were to happen.i will juz leave n lead my life alone.i need someone now.someone to juz listen to me talk.. someone .. ... ...

2007-03-29T13:40:00.000-07:00

dear diary.. i m realli in a veri sad emotion right now.i realli needa find someone to talk..but i juz dunno how to..this time i realli did not know wad to do.. it no longer like a relationship prob nor a friendship prob.which i can juz crys my eye off.but.. my parents..
they are plannin for a divorce..20 yrs of them raising me up.. and now .. gone..
i realli hate to accept this fact.i realli hate it... why of all .. me..my family.. have to b tear apart..wount there b anything to do to change it? i realli needa someone .. i need a listenin ear n crying shoulders..

2007-03-28T21:50:00.000-07:00

was kaixin birthday today..met her up at parklane around 430.steve n mathew was late,so meanwhile waiting for them, we had a game of pool at parklane shopping ctre.was susprise to find my gang of poly peeps there too.so had a few game with leon,james n bobo.quite fun,miss e days of our poly life.lols.. awaiting sch reopen... lols
steve n mathew came around 5,after they arrive,we went to E cathay to buy movie tickets.we watched to show storm e yards.. preety nice show,give it 4/5.. e dance steps were way cool n its totally enjoying n thrilling..but e show was rather long..2 hrs plus.. ended around 730..after e show ended.. i headed straight to spyder first to settle my bill.. lols .. i was pretty drunk last night la..n my friends juz simply drag me home without knowing tt i have not footed e bill..lols.. when i was drunk last night.i think i remembered asking her one thing..i asked her..
`shagua,do u still have feelins for me ?
lols.. serisouly i didnt noe why i pop tt questions out..sorri ! but ......... tt realli a question tt i realli wanted to know.i dunno whether wad i m doin now is right or wrong.or m i juz as foolish as u.waiting for a day tt will never come...
i went down to spyer today..i didnt wanan drink,infact i cant..i vommited blood again..but i realli miss her.. n i dearly wanna see her..but i regretted..actaully sometime its not easy for people to become normal friend when they were once as close.because u no longer get those special care n concern anymore.. there is no one there to stop me from drinking when i noe i cant.no more special given green tea on my desk anymore.i realli miss those days..i realli miss it...

2007-03-27T18:17:00.000-07:00

woke up late again as usual.. so tired.dunno y,this days seems to sleep alot,n NOT ENUFF ! lols.. called steve to bugged him up and went to bbdc for lesson.
Received her msg today..from her msg,she is NOT happy.n i m truely not happy because of tt.. i tot she had found her key so i decided to leave for e better but sigh, she seems to be even unhappier this days.from her msg,i could tell she is trying hard..really hard to please n treat this guy well..she realli did love him,despite the things he does,she still wanna treat him well,really wonder why cant he juz treasure n cherish her since he got e opportunity.she is a nice ger.y cant he juz treat her nicely.idiot..

`if u ever get to read my blog,pls.. i m trying to tell u stuff.i do noe a bit or so about u.i dun care wad happen in e past.but since she has chosen u,pls.. juz at e least,treat her as wad she deserve.she isnt asking much,juz purley ure care,concern n love.if u dun mean wad u say,dun hurt her..she is not a float,when u need her,u come,n when u dun,u juz leave... PLS SPARE A THOUGHT FOR HER FEELINS.THANKS !

well,was kaixin birthday.. this for u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to U...
happy birthday to kaiXin...
happy birthday to UuUUuuuuu.....

lols.. do hope u enjoyed ureself last night.sorry,realli drank too much ytd,a bit drunk.. haha..went off early..meet u up today k.. needa pass u ure present too..hmmmm...[ special thanks to david n steve.carried me home ytd.realli appreciate u guys for always being there for me..lols.. thanks bros... ] =)

2007-03-25T07:05:00.000-07:00

was working this 2 days at harvey.e crowd realli sucks big time.. sold 15 at e end of this 2 days.sale figure was average.quite disappointed.hmmm.. well.. today i got to know a girl called celine.was having lunch with my collegue at kopitiam,n then this cute looking girl came over and ask to make friends.lucky me.. quite sweet looking la..msg a little while working.suddenly reminds me of e past.how we met and how we used to msged one another..all e sweet memories.. if only ..

hmmm ytd was down at mv2.lols.get to saw her.. so happy...=)but some idiot customer juz think money is everything la..fucker idiots..not all girls are easy u noe.too bad,u juz found a wrong target to prey on .she is not goin to do wad u guys juz wanted.n worst if i m there,over my dead body...to who i dun care.. juz dun touch her..!!!!! SHE IS NOT THOSE TYPE OF EASY GIRLS N SO JUZ FUCK OFF...!!!
felt so usless ytd night.i promise i will b there n protect her,but wad i realli could do is juz to pull her away,nothing else.lousy me..i hate myself..but e least,i m glad shes ok...
left early last night coz her "boyfriend" n kway chap company came.n i noe she will b fine. doesnt wana b in e way.so i left for e better...

=/

2007-03-24T20:01:00.000-07:00

woke up v late today.so tired.hmmm,was suppose to meet steve in the morning today to go to bbdc for enrolment.but both overselpt.. lols ... met up with him around 415 at my house .went for a late lunch n proceed to bbdc.the place was packed when we reach there.eager with stuff,we had our first lesson on e day itself.ended around 930.when everything was done,randy called...
he wanted to go mv2 tonight,coz sarah asked him to.he was overjoyed.lols.was e first time sarah ever called to ask him come down herself.i didnt wanted to but he seems rather eager.so bo bian...went down with him. was super packed when we reach there lo.. packed till we had to sit at e counter.was really happy to see her today.but duno why,feelins totally differs.perhaps tt how it should b felt as friends ba.. i no longer had e courage to juz look into her eyes.i means as a friend i shouldnt la.. but perhaps .. i m juz too used to it le.i noe i still feels for her..its a lie saying tt i dun.alcohol and cigi became something i always turn to this days.sigh..michael n company turn up a bit later in e night.so i decided to leave.i dun hate michael,but i hate e way they are together.tt closness..i dunno why,i always seems to have a distance with her,a unknown barrier.she nv was able to behave herself infront of me,yet she can infront of others guys.perhaps i m juz a difficult guy to please... left mv2.
realli wanted to b drunk tonight.took a cab n went down to baby face to find jiany.was susprise to find my younger bro there too.. drank a lot n had lota fun with them.at least,i could disperse some of my emotions off with e after effect of alcohol... went home around 5 plus n concus straight... lols

2007-03-22T10:03:00.000-07:00

arghh.. woke up with a terrible headache.. !@#$%^&*#$@

lols.drank alot last night.now suffering e effects.well.. didnt regret.at least i realli had a good sleep last night.haha. woke up like v late today la.was late for e collection of my friends camera.woke up with like 13 miss call n 4 new msges. my friend was all e way at ngee ann poly waiting for me.sorry~.didnt mean it... guess i overselpt a little .. lols...

well..i reach jurong point around 4 plus.collected e cameras then proceed to town to meet my friend n steve.super long journey lo..took like around an hour.zzzz.. worst... rain.!! sianz... met up with steve first at parklane.played lan for a while until around 8 plus.met up with my friend .. pass her e cameras le.then we went to spyder... was hoping to see someone there.but i didnt get to.she wasnt working today...sigh .. andy came to talk to me when i was there.i was susprised.i was told not to drink excessively,lols... well.. i did la..but wad susprise me was who told him? dun realli think much pple knew tt i vomited blood recently ley.. hmmm .. lols.
k la..will control a bit.. anyway wount realli b goin to pub tt often le.no longer had e purpose.it time i get back on track.spend more time in my goals n studies.mean time.. MY LICENSE... lols... i m juz goona get it before my birthday la ..ahaha .. k la.. gonna hit e sheets le.so tired ..nights !

2007-03-21T23:27:00.000-07:00

hmmm wented to MV2 last night.i thought i was able to give it all up and remain my cool.but ..i was wrong.e feelin was so strong again ytd.i didnt dare to look at u at all.y m i such a coward.sigh~!this 2 days,to b frank,everytime my msg ringtone rang.i so hope it was u.indeed i got ure msg,but it was no longer tt warm as it used to b."wei" is wad i m called right now,well it wasnt wrong,but perhaps i m juz too used to it u calling me pig.haha. but e least,i noe u are happy,coz u no longer frown when i see u.=) drank so much ytd,i dun wanna think,but it seems tt u are always in my head.i miss u...
this days ,i really appreaciate a lota people,esp david,steve and randy...thanks for being there for me in my lowest moment.Im glad i have u all as my sworn.no regrets. N one last person.. kaixin.thanks for showing me tt much concern.i noe how u felt towards me.u r realli a nice ger.but perhaps u juz appeared at e wrong time.i m sry. no way it will happen now.i wount do it.it juz not fair.we will be very good friend .. ya ?
goin bbdc later.this time,i m super determined to get my license.had so much fun with wei zi bike the other day.lols. gonna get my license before my birthday.tt would be my birthday wish this year. haha..i m looking at my phone every now n then.but i guess ... haha ..
see how it goes ba...

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i realli need someone .. someone to really talk to nw.i wanna cry it all out.but i know i cant.cause if i really did,i m juz a sore loser.i lost.i realli lost... to u.

i m feeling realli not alright now.damm lousy feelings.e fact tt we have reverted back to friends.im really upset and affected by it. i hate this feelin. !!!!

i had a lot to say to u.but i juz didnt noe how to put it. but i m glad,at e least i m strong enuff to put those words across u at ure house.i wan u to be happy.i m sry for all this while, i know u have been trying hard to love me n to make me happy.i m realli touched.but perhaps.. we r juz nt meant to b.sigh!

`sha gua..promise me one thing... dun forget me. one day,if u are hurt again,dun b afraid to find me.i will really b there for u. whether to b ure listening ears or your crying shoulders. i promise... if i ever could have e chance again.sha gua,i did realli wan u back.till then... take good care of yourself.
sha gua.. i realli miss u ...

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